You wouldn't believe how many things come to my mind when I think about what year it is. Two thousand and nineteen. Wow. I turned the legal age of 18, 10 years ago. I graduated from high school 10 years ago. I was probably filling out college applications on this day 10 years ago. 10 years ago I made it official with my first love and now he is my child's father. 10 years ago I was moving out of my mother's house to be on my own. It was 10 years ago when she took me to planned parenthood and put me on birth control. 10 years ago I got my first tattoo and my belly pierced. (Random fact, my mother hated my belly piercing but didn't mind my tattoo. How backwards is that? Lol) Random thoughts, I know. But it's funny, these are all of the things that come to my mind when I think about 2019.
10 years ago, if I had asked myself where would I be in 2019, I wouldn't describe my life the way it is now. I don't know if that's a bad or a good thing. By 2019, I wanted to own my house, I wanted to be settled in a relationship while growing a family, I wanted to have 50% of my student loan debt paid off, I wanted to be in an executive position at my job instead of a managerial position. It's crazy because life never goes as planned and it shouldn't. Life is supposed to be our biggest teacher. Its the greatest experience we will ever have. It is designed to teach, mold, heal, shape, hurt, and love us. One of the biggest things I have learned about life is to never take it for granted. One of the hardest things I have learned about life is to live it effortlessly. So with that being said, instead of comparing my life today, in 2019, to what I wished or thought it would be like 10 years ago, I need to appreciate why it is the way it is. In other words, once I understand and accept the way things are, I would then be able to see and understand my own personal growth.
In 2009 I created long-term goals for myself.
By 2019, I wanted to own my house. One of the biggest barriers that I have to face in purchasing a home, is my debt-to-income ratio. I have about 40K in student loans which is equal to a lot of people's yearly salary. I wanted to be settled in a relationship and grow a family. Sometimes God's plan doesn't equal to our plan. When I conceived in 2014, I had no idea I would end up as a single mother. Now I have my own little family. I wanted to have 50% of my student loan debt paid off. HA! I might live with this damn debt forever... Just kidding. I am grateful to now hold a position where my employer is willing to pay off my student loans. I wanted to be in an executive position at my job instead of a managerial position. And now I'm screaming I don't want either. The only person I am interested in working for is myself.
Sometimes we are our biggest critics. Instead of taking what I wanted for myself and comparing it to what I actually got. I need to be paying attention to the "why". Once you understand why things are the way they are and how you got there. You will understand your story better.
Its day 10 out of 365 days. I do not have any new year resolutions. The only thing I am expecting to change is ........change. I plan on growing in all aspects. Financially and spiritually mostly. Everything that I do now is solely for me. If it doesn't make me great that means I can do better. On December 31, 2019, I need to be able to see and witness my changes. If 12 months go by and I am still in the same position that I was in on day 10, that means I have failed myself.
We have a fresh 12 months to live, learn, love, and make mistakes. I would like to wish you a very healthy, happy, and prosperous New Year!
10 years ago, if I had asked myself where would I be in 2019, I wouldn't describe my life the way it is now. I don't know if that's a bad or a good thing. By 2019, I wanted to own my house, I wanted to be settled in a relationship while growing a family, I wanted to have 50% of my student loan debt paid off, I wanted to be in an executive position at my job instead of a managerial position. It's crazy because life never goes as planned and it shouldn't. Life is supposed to be our biggest teacher. Its the greatest experience we will ever have. It is designed to teach, mold, heal, shape, hurt, and love us. One of the biggest things I have learned about life is to never take it for granted. One of the hardest things I have learned about life is to live it effortlessly. So with that being said, instead of comparing my life today, in 2019, to what I wished or thought it would be like 10 years ago, I need to appreciate why it is the way it is. In other words, once I understand and accept the way things are, I would then be able to see and understand my own personal growth.
In 2009 I created long-term goals for myself.
By 2019, I wanted to own my house. One of the biggest barriers that I have to face in purchasing a home, is my debt-to-income ratio. I have about 40K in student loans which is equal to a lot of people's yearly salary. I wanted to be settled in a relationship and grow a family. Sometimes God's plan doesn't equal to our plan. When I conceived in 2014, I had no idea I would end up as a single mother. Now I have my own little family. I wanted to have 50% of my student loan debt paid off. HA! I might live with this damn debt forever... Just kidding. I am grateful to now hold a position where my employer is willing to pay off my student loans. I wanted to be in an executive position at my job instead of a managerial position. And now I'm screaming I don't want either. The only person I am interested in working for is myself.
Sometimes we are our biggest critics. Instead of taking what I wanted for myself and comparing it to what I actually got. I need to be paying attention to the "why". Once you understand why things are the way they are and how you got there. You will understand your story better.
Its day 10 out of 365 days. I do not have any new year resolutions. The only thing I am expecting to change is ........change. I plan on growing in all aspects. Financially and spiritually mostly. Everything that I do now is solely for me. If it doesn't make me great that means I can do better. On December 31, 2019, I need to be able to see and witness my changes. If 12 months go by and I am still in the same position that I was in on day 10, that means I have failed myself.
We have a fresh 12 months to live, learn, love, and make mistakes. I would like to wish you a very healthy, happy, and prosperous New Year!
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Truly enjoyed reading this!
Darielle on
U one of the hardest working people I know let alone u taught me many things jus being around u for the last four yrs but know u for ma support always n forever love u Taylor
Shaqor on
Live life to the fullest as if today is your last! Laugh hard, love deep, and enjoy yourself! I’m proud of you for your outlook on life! You will be an inspiration to many other young woman!
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